Insomnia

12:44 a.m., Tuesday morning. I just cannot go to sleep. My internal clock is completely off. I am tired of taking Tylenol P.M.

I am totally freaked out about a possible recurrence in the now non-breast that had cancer. There is a dull itching exactly where the biopsy/cancer was found. But what really freaks me out further is the dull pain/swollen feeling continues down my ribcage. I did email my Oncologist and did get a response..but nothing is set/planned for imaging. Which is really what I need at this point. Just need to know it is not cancer in my foob or anywhere else in that area.

Cancer you SUCK! I keep thinking worst case scenario. I am really emotional about Sophia these past few days as well. I just need to get those bad thoughts out of my head. Cancer is just such a mind fuck. (excuse the use of the phrase,..but really there is no better way to explain it).

Just need to breathe. Just need to try to sleep.